Author: alysse

  • The Pinch of Death: a mystery by Alysse Aallyn

    Chapter 3: An Appointment

    The old lady’s jaws worked restlessly. “I need to consult you about this matter we mentioned. I am in possession of some knowledge-“

    “I’m hardly an expert,” Jacquetta interposed hastily.

    “I consulted a worldly expert,” snapped the old lady. “He made it clear to me that I need someone else.”

    She then amazed Jacquetta by pulling from her bag an ancient leather book labeled “1910.” Did she know what year it was?

    “Depends where you are,” quibbled Jacquetta. The day she was supposed to enter the monastery! But lunch was only lunch. She was curious. It could work.

    “Glasstown,” said the old lady. “Named after the family’s factory. We wanted to call it Iridium, but town fathers are so pedestrian.”

    “You’re a…Rainbeaux?” It was a famous family – the most famous family in the area. “Your stained glass is so beautiful.”

    “Alas, the factory is defunct. Once upon a time artists were content to toil anonymously for the glory of the work, now it’s all about pensions, breaks, insurance and overtime. We were forced to close.”

    “I’m Jacquetta Strike,” said Jacquetta. “My church – St. Barnabas – has some of your windows. They are truly glorious.”

    “Tomorrow’s Friday. Will that suit?”

    “St. Barnabas!” The old woman seemed thunderstruck. “How very curious. I was there…only recently.”

    Certainly that church was an out of the way church for a Glasstown resident but Jacquetta did not inquire further. She reached out a hand and the old woman enveloped it in a pair of claws knotty with tarnished rings.

    “I’m Beatrix Rainbeaux,” the old lady introduced herself. “My house is in the middle of town, across from the police station. Enormous glass rainbow over the door – you can’t miss it. Shall we say noon sharp? I cannot bear unpunctuality.”


    This was simply irresistible. The sisters did not really expect her until Vespers. They had been so understanding about every difficulty.


    “I’m looking forward to it,” said Jacquetta.

  • The Pinch of Death: a mystery by Alysse Aallyn

    Chapter 2. Fate
               
                    “Evil up close?” Here was an unforeseen conversation while the other passengers chattered around them and dusk gave way to night. “What did it look like?”
     
                    The old woman pursed her long flat lips and moved them nervously back and forth like a cow chewing cud. “Exactly like a human being. As beautiful as an angel…”
     
                    Jacquetta felt a panicky, almost prissy qualm. “There can’t be such a thing as absolute evil,” she insisted. “A soul can always be saved.”
     
                    “Oh, there’s no soul involved,” insisted the woman. “It’s a husk. I’m telling you, I saw.”
                    She fumbled in her bag. “I really must pay you back,” she insisted.
     
                    Jacquetta held up a hand. “Oh, you’ve paid me back,” she said, “with your story.  Money means nothing to me now.”
     
                    The old lady gaped at the raw boned young woman before her, she of the sweeping brunette hair, deep-socketed eyes and medieval nose finished off at the end with three sharp chisel cuts.  “Are you…going to DIE?” she gasped.
     
                    “Well, we’re all going to die,” laughed Jacquetta.  Actually I’m entering a monastery.”
     
                    The poor old woman’s jaw almost disappeared into her purse.  Jacquetta took pity on her. “I’m going to become a nun,” she said. “It’s a contemplative order, and you’ve given me something to contemplate.”
     
                    “I didn’t know that sort of thing still went on,” said the old lady. “You don’t look like the kind of wishy washy creature that life would appeal to.  What are you going to do all day…pray?”
     
                    “I hope,” said Jacquetta. “Prayer and study. They can reject me, after all.”
     
                    “I smell an unhappy love affair,” said the old lady, “and you’re probably a lot more romantic than you look. So you’re going to become a bride of Jesus? Trust me, it isn’t worth it.  No man is worth giving up the world.”
     
                    Why did I bring this up? Jacquetta wailed inwardly. “Nice old lady” was turning mean and showing an uncomfortable clairvoyance. “I’ve been working the last eight years on a magazine,” she jested, trying to change the subject. “All my wishes came true. I was promoted from secretary to researcher and then to writer. I was feted and adored, offered travel and given more and more work. Interesting work. Believe me, I could use a little peace and quiet.”
     
                    She didn’t say, I prayed for my boss to notice me and he did. Oh, he did…
     
                    “Last year I was sick to death of everything. I went on retreat at a monastery and it was a revelation.  The nuns were so happy! Like you, I hadn’t pictured that. They were preoccupied with something I couldn’t see. They looked past me, as if I were a shadow. It quite literally seemed a heaven on earth.”
     
                    “I must say it’s a relief to have a discussion with someone who believes in evil!” snapped the old lady. “I’m tired of being told I’m a leftover has been. Brought up Catholic, were you?”
     
                    “I was. Didn’t go to parochial schools though and I wasn’t as religious as my mother. She always seemed –” “superstitious as a pygmy,” Jacquetta had been going to say.  Some very, very primitive tribe.  “But when I began to read…”
     
                    “Ah,” said the old lady, “The Age of Reason.  Glad to see someone making use of it instead of consigning the world’s greatest thinkers to the dustbin. So you’re something of an expert on evil.”
     
                    Actually, this diagnosis felt horrible.  Terminal.  She wanted to argue with it and couldn’t. Typically, she tried to joke. “Well, if you’ve lived in the advertising world for any period of time –“
     
                    “I might be ready for the monastery myself!” the old lady nodded. “This meeting has been providential. As for me, I believe in Fate.  Comes to the same thing in the end, doesn’t it? I wish you’d give me some advice.”
     
                    This was more to be expected, and Jacquetta felt herself relax a bit.  This was the same thing that happened to seminarians and medical students.  Advice.  The moment they saw you as a specialist, everyone wanted a free diagnosis.
     
                    “Certainly,” she returned, thinking, I love discussing anyone other than me.
                   
                    The old lady glanced around her as if the demon she feared had the cloak of invisibility.

                    “Not here.  Would you do me the honor of lunching with me tomorrow?”

  • The Pinch of Death: a mystery by Alysse Aallyn

    Chapter 1: A question of evil

    On a winter day in 1980, two women who had just met found themselves discussing evil in a train compartment. It had been Jacquetta Strike’s last day at work, and she’d had little to do other than anticipate a cavalcade of “last things”; such as of looking out of a grubby train window and watching the glittering

    lights of New York give way to the somber darkness of New Jersey. But her contemplation was shattered by the noise of an old woman having an altercation with the conductor.

    “Three more dollars! Why, that’s robbery! My ticket says Princeton Junction right on it! It was perfectly good when I came in this morning, and it’s a round trip ticket. I insist on talking to your superior.”

    She was a very short old woman with features too big for her face: eyebrows wrestled like caterpillars at the bridge of her nose and her big coarse ears looked as if they could do with a more thorough washing. She carried a black velvet carpet bag with tarnished silver handles and her sealskin coat had probably been all the rage in the last century, but her rubber tipped cane was pathetically utilitarian.


    “This here is an off-hour ticket,” explained the tired conductor, “And you’re riding a rush hour train. See all those people standing? Well, they’ve got better tickets than yours. You needed to wait for the six-thirty.”


    “I’ll pay the three dollars,” said Jacquetta, forking it over. Anything for a little peace and quiet to assess the massive change that had just taken place in her life. After all, what was money? The least important thing in the universe. But the old lady turned to Jacquetta with an expression of outrage.


    “I can’t allow that! This carriage is as crowded as a cattle car! They should charge less, not more!”
    With unseemly haste, the conductor punched a new ticket, eager to be gone.

    “It’s the law of supply and demand,” explained Jacquetta. “Everyone wants eggs; eggs are ten dollars. No one wants eggs then they’re giving them away.”


    “It’s foolishness,” said the old lady. “And that man was very rude.”


    “He was only doing his job.”


    The old lady snorted. “That’s a modern excuse for irresponsibility! In my day people were proud of their work, worked long hours with no overtime just to get things right. Nobody cares any more in this terrible world.”


    Jacquetta was surprised to see a look of real pain distort the aging face.


    “People used to leave their houses unlocked and women could stroll the streets unmolested. People are eviller, that’s all. Everyone’s out for what they can get.”


    Jacquetta couldn’t let this one past. “I think there was plenty of awfulness and we just didn’t know about it,” she offered mildly. “The media simply provides a mirror and we’re frightened by what we see.” Our own face, she thought. That’s what scares us.

    “Blame and excuses,” disputed the old lady, “The problem is evil. People born without a conscience don’t care what they do.”


    “Sociopaths,” said Jacquetta. “I think that’s the clinical term.” Giles de Retz? Vlad the Impaler? Was sociopathy such a modern invention?


    “And then some people choose evil,” the old lady insisted, “So they can get what they want. Appetite! You can ride the devil, but you can’t get off.”


    “We all have dangerous potential,” agreed Jacquetta. Who would have thought she’d be having a conversation like this on her last day!


    “I’m not talking about potential,” said the old lady, “I’m talking about people who’ve murdered! Soulless killers. They’d squash a human being the way you or I would swat a fly.”


    “Someone you know?” queried Jacquetta. This seemed more personal than a news story.
    The woman’s face buckled like old leather. She nodded. “I’ve looked evil in the face,” she whispered. “I was terrified.”

  • Testimony: a poem by Alysse Aallyn

    TESTIMONY

    In 1979 I borrowed a dime
    And stepped out in my party-dress
    To make a call.
    I’d need a cell phone now.
    A careless man said,
    “Find your own way home.”

    St Theresa cut in on our line –
    A sixteenth century nun pierced by light
    Reminded me while kneeling there
    To cut my anger with the sword of bliss
    And revel in the sacred music
    Anchor-less.

    I still seek among the faces
    Grief unstrung, listen to their emptiness
    Of joy undone
    Amidst the rage, the blindness and the fear;
    Recognize magnificence
    She told me would be there.

  • The Controversy: a poem by Alysse Aallyn

    The Controversy

    In the bar we argue
    You drink gin and I drink bourbon
    You admit there’s something out there but
    God and Christ have been discredited
    You prefer the snake-faced aliens.

    Can pedagogues discredit learning
    I demand -Do rapists disgrace sex?
    Outside the blank-faced soldiers
    Breathing on the glass of history
    Await their time.

    They are glad to lend their bones
    As lumber. They’re afraid to live.
    Rebel children seize the city
    Experimenting on the damned.
    We’re trapped inside the hourglass

    Moving not in circles but in spirals –
    Moving somewhere.
    You order a stronger round
    I look inside my wallet
    To see what’s left.

  • Constellations: Berenice’s Hair – a poem by Alysse Aallyn

    Constellations: Berenice’s Hair

    Meteoric dust drips ash
    Into my upturned mouth;
    I taste stars;
    What manner of being are you?
    I only know you’re something
    That I need. Your

    Mirrored endlessness partakes of
    Nothing human, yet suggests
    Completion. Your shadow arches
    Over everything, a lover who
    Won’t give satisfaction. I’ll take
    The expert titillation

    Of your neglect.
    Hunger burns so purely in
    This atmosphere. Without you
    I might be myself; with you
    I am nothing. But
    Deflation is a lover’s privilege.

  • Constellation: Corvus the Crow; a poem by Alysse Aallyn

    CONSTELLATIONS: CORVUS, THE CROW

    This feathered dervish
    Is an endangered species,
    Always seeking center of the fire.
    Does he know what we don’t or
    Is he just trying to make us feel guilty?

    Iridescently decrescent he’s
    Always fighting someone else’s battles.
    He wins quite a few because
    Celestial wing’s always
    Quicker than the eye.

  • Apus, Bird of Paradise; a poem by Alysse Aallyn

    I have seen the soul cave in
    Imploding; lens burnt hyaline
    Seen the wings upflung – God’s eagle
    Tesserae shagreen; seen
    The flare-tailed phoenix shuddering;
    Ripping orchid-breasted dream
    Splitting spleen and coil and lung into
    A shell of lies where
    Love and truth; meant and unmeant
    Polychromize.

  • St Dorothy: a poem by Alysse Aallyn

    ST DOROTHY

    Who is this man
    Cruel mouth tipped like a cesspit
    To catch the unwary?

    It is the Roman Inquisitor
    Who takes flowers, accepts apples
    From the sunflower-faced girl.

    She tends her father’s gate
    They argue and
    He loses.

    He jokes but does not forget.
    They will meet again
    At the World’s End.

  • Advice I’d Give My Daughter: a poem by Alysse Aallyn

    ADVICE I’D GIVE MY DAUGHTER

    Do not fear –
    Much is wasted
    Cowering against the moment.

    Some things are
    Forever. Value
    Yourself; you are one

    Of them; this space
    Is crossable;
    I did and you will.

    Thirdly, I’ll be with you.
    No matter how
    No matter where

    I’ll be with you
    And your daughter
    As you do it.