Category: #Diaries

  • Purrsiflage – your Purrson Horoscope with Alysse Aallyn

    Dec 19

    The Universe Tells You –  It’s Time to Wake up!  Do you look forward to dreaming? I like waking up in the early dawn because when I go back to sleep I can set an intention for dreaming – all the best dreams (and the most memorable ones) happen at the very end of sleep while you are coming up through the layers of sub- to semi-consciousness.

    Purrsons Are in Tune With Their Inner Voice – Jung tells us that in your dreams, you are everyone. Every life you have ever lived and every life you will ever live comes to you through your dreams.

    Remember – As Purrson, You’re the Pilot – Do you long for caretaking? Are you eager to give over the reins of your life to someone else? If so, your dreams are likely to become scary, unmanageable and unsatisfying. It is time for you to take charge of your power – to admit that you are in control of your own brain.

    Purrsons Are Seekers – We are self-defining. Self-validating. We are on a quest. Purrsons experience to the fullest the nature of having a self. Become alert to the possibilities inherent in this particular incarnation and explore.  Feel free to release your imagination.

    Dream Journal – Start a Dream Journal. Date it, and write, “I want to dream about…” Fill in the blank. Be as detailed and specific as you can manage. It is OK to allow your waking mind to construct desirable dreams – great works of art got their start in just this way! You may hear a voice… someone from the past who discouraged your “day-dreaming” and wanted you to focus on your work, on the present and on them. Explore this memory fearlessly. It is not rejecting or “hating on” that person to disagree with them – there are certainly times when the priority is to focus on other things – but right now you are exploring your own brain and testing out its powers. Clearly that’s an important and necessary project. Gently take control from this Remembered Forbidder and say, “This is my time now. I am in charge.”

    Purrson Danger – We all know the cautionary tale of Scary Guy Who Lives for Video Games and Doesn’t Have a Life. Do you secretly fear that the power of dreams and the pleasures of daydreaming will suck you away from Real World Competence? They won’t – so long as you are reality centered. Some people only dream of different outcomes, futures that are impossible – instead of finding workable avenues of growth and advancement.

    Positive Dreaming Deepens and Enhances, doesn’t evade reality. It’s just that reality is so much wilder – and we are so much more powerful than we can credit!

    Dream Group – Form a Dream Group with others to share the content of your dreams and listen to their fresh interpretations.  You can even try Group Dreaming. Lie on the floor holding hands in semi-darkness playing drowsy music. Share whatever comes up. These are models for your future. Some of us believe this growth goes on forever – even after death.

    Models & Mentors – “I dream things that never were and I say, “Why Not?” – George Bernard Shaw

    “A dreamer finds his way by moonlight…sees dawn before the rest of the world.” – Oscar Wilde

    ‘You have within you the strength, the patience and the passion to reach for the stars to change the world”

    – Harriet Tubman

    “I’ve had dreams, and I’ve had nightmares. I overcame the nightmares because of my dreams.” – Jonas Salk

  • Purrsiflage – Your Daily Purrson Horoscope with Alysse Aallyn

    The Universe Inspires You  – Let’s help you find a way to hang on to those little ideas that keep flickering across your mind-screen. Are you waking up filled with exciting ideas you long to write down?  Do you feel the potential of philosophical, profound revelations in your dreams which can never be captured in your waking state?

    Your Subconscious is Calling Out to You – You are experiencing a split between your Rational self and your Prophetic Self, a split which is not only potentially dangerous but completely unnecessary. Probably someone in your education blocked your inspiration by demeaning this interactive channel to the Collective Unconscious of Past and Future and warned you to ignore it. Often teachers think they are “protecting” us by claiming ignorance of intergenerational trauma, despising collective wisdom and its symbols. Education is a good thing when it teaches you to recognize, master and increase resources but it is certainly a bad thing if it countermands, neglects or destroys the natural Purrson yearning inside of you for a deeper connection to all of history and humanity.

    Purrson Challenge – We can re-open this channel, but we will have to think about its potential in a more positive way. The great physicist said that all profound truths contain their opposite (i.e. are not dichotomous) and so require new theories about the Real and the Unreal. These ideas are not mutually exclusive. We must learn to flow with them, rather than fear & resist their bubblings of power.

    Purrson Danger – “Either/Or” thinking is destructive because it requires we abandon access to vast methodologies of understanding. “Reductionism” reduces the world to “things” on the presumption that people are transient and “things” are more permanent. But if the magic of the universe encodes in relationships rather than objects this reductionism kills true discovery & thought itself.

    Purrson Opportunity – Accept and ready yourself to explore your inspirations. Learn to separate them from fears and wishes. Cultivate your intuition, that precious gut instinct that warns us who and what to trust and who – and what – to back away from. Accept that – like all good things, this is a Process – thus endless (ie; to be enjoyed for all eternity.) Accept that it is a skill to be honed – one you will keep forever.

    Purrsons’ Gut – You sense things. After you sleep on it, you know things. Develop these instincts through drumming, foot massage, chanting, meditation, whatever activities bring you “out” of your head.

    Confront Your Real Self – You can use a sauna as your own private ‘sweat lodge.” The goal is to locate your original self to ask its opinion.

    All too often people in our consumer culture seek a psycho-active product for brain “transformation”. You will need brain “purifying” instead. Consider the substances you fear being without. Caffeine? Nicotine? Carbohydrates? Alcohol? Pain pills? Consider trying to go without for short periods of time to develop your tolerance. Try intermittent fasting under the guidance of a responsible nutrition coach. Track your emerging thoughts in your Training Journal.

    Models & Mentors – “Intuition is the whisper of the soul” – Krishnamurti

    “A good artist lets intuition lead him wherever it wants” – Lao Tzu

    “Follow your instincts – it’s where true wisdom manifests itself” – Oprah Winfrey

    “Intuition and observation are the sources for our knowledge” – Rudolf Steiner

  • Purrsiflage – Your Cat Horoscope with Alysse Aallyn

    Dec 11

    Today is all good news! The Universe is telling us hard-working Purrpersons to Relax.  But can we afford to relax?  Seems counterintuitive right before a big project, doesn’t it, and aren’t we always revving up for Some Big Push? Well, First Lesson of Purrson Boot Camp is that Purrpersonhood is Counterintuitive. Other people rush away from the burning building – planning on being EVEN MORE SCARED the next time. But we are Caretakers.  We are going to master our fear. We are going in.

    That’s right! Purrsons aren’t cats THEMSELVES – we take care of cats! We have to think ahead, into the future, the place that cats can’t see. Thank goodness we have Purrsiflage, the art of Universe Divination, to help us.

    Let’s consider a “Letting Go” archetype – Such as swimming, flying, dreaming. Does this stir something within you? Cats don’t swim but – tigers do. Cats don’t fly – but they do have powerful imaginations. And cats can pounce.

    We’re declaring our place in the world. Past memories are of others firmly trying to “place” you and keep you there. Dismiss those from your thoughts.  You’re alone now, encountering Universal Mind, to speak and listen, about your own potential – and it’s the most exciting place to be in the world. 

    Everybody Panics  – Even Cats. I had my first panic attack at age 5 (I  got lost outside a movie theatre) and another at age 11 when I descended deep, deep, deep into a cave. (I think the guide was deliberately trying to scare us.) I didn’t know at the time what these episodes were – my parents and sisters saw them as embarrassing annoyances – but looking back it’s clear what was happening to me physically was as a result of what was happening to me mentally.

    Learn to Relax In the Face of Panic – To tolerate psychic dissonance, be curious about it and interested in it and challenged by it is what we’re all about. 

    Cats Are Curious – We’re in the presence of the Deep Stuff – the things that galvanize our deep subconscious and if we can just seize control of that, we’ll be able to access our true power.

    Learn Relaxation Techniques – There are so many and you should experiment with all of them! Learn what works for you and – key – what you enjoy. You will find yourselves using these techniques all the time. To get to sleep, to get through difficult experiences or just to access your subconscious when you have a question.

    Breathe Deeply – The very first thing is mastering control of the breath. Pregnant women learn all kinds of helpful breathing techniques in Lamaze; panting, counting; deliberately slowing down and speeding up your breathing. In yoga you will learn Lion Breaths to make you feel powerful. They are very similar to the gasps and shouts in martial arts and will affect your opponents. Watch the Maori war dance on YouTube.

    Get Out Your Training Journal – write down the techniques and your reactions. Appoint a time to practice these every day. Your breath connects you to the universe and all living things.

    Models & Mentors: “The first thing to learn is the breath.” – Confucius

    ‘Breathe In. Let Go. And remind yourself that this very moment is the only one you know you have for sure, and give thanks for that.”

    – Oprah Winfrey

    Feelings come and go like clouds in a windy sky. Conscious breathing is my anchor” –

    Thich Nhat Hanh

    “While we breathe, we hope” – Barack Obama

  • Purrsiflage – Your Purrsonhood Horoscope with Alysse Aallyn

    Dec 10

    The “Power” Issue will control your day – Is this your archetype? If so, consider yourself one of the Elect. Most people feel that archetype of Power it’s the most valuable archetype in the Purrson Oracle.  But purrsonhood builds over time, and power can destroy in an instant. We are well familiar with fires that get out of control, rage-fueled spirals, explosives that blow up in your face and escalating weaponry. How do we master such an overwhelming force?

    You Must Own Your Power – Accept that you have the force within you to get things done and to bend unfriendly circumstances to your desire and will. To others, creativity looks like magic.  Accept that. Isn’t that what we all want – a little magic?

    You Are Iconic – But the Power archetype is about the inherent magic that is especially, irreplaceably You. You have a power no one else has, incorporated in your being, your possibilities, your desires and your memories.  This takes a lifetime to accept because we all nervously want to be Someone Else and experience existence through the armor of Having only an Outside instead of just the very vulnerable Inside in which we all feel imprisoned.

    Dreams Instruct You –  Your dreams bring all these passions together as psychic poetry, elucidating what you think you want, what you hope you want and what you are afraid you want. The ultimate magic will be to seize conscious control of this potent power source.

    Purrson Challenge – The challenge is to truly connect with others, reveal our world Inside, and avoid blasting their apparently impenetrable Outside with our terror, our longing and our fear.

    Purrson Danger – We cannot take hostages and we must never become a hostage. Freedom is a fine line to walk. If we wish to reach out, we must treat others with respect and claim like respect for ourselves. Accept your “experiments”; do not fear them but allow them to take you where you need to go.

    Purrson Opportunities – There will be stumbles and terrors aplenty, also successes that LOOK like stumbles and terrors, but which we only realize on reflection were real leaps forward. This is why we must carefully assess our daily efforts without being harsh with ourselves. Speak gently to yourself as you would to a most beloved child. You are your own Most Beloved Child. It is not selfish to commit to this belief, it is simply placing the oxygen mask over your own face FIRST so that you can administer this life-saving force to others. Find someone with whom you can share your journey, without fear or judgment. This connection will teach us everything we need to know about how to connect with others.

    Fear & Trembling: Where would we get the courage to become purrsons? Human history begins with an enormous fear of God or whoever is causing all that lightning, those earthquakes and striking everybody down. Killing small helpless, pretty things was meant to be flattering and propitiatory to this God (I don’t get it either.) then Jesus came with a message about how God was really loving, generous and wanted the best for us. We know how that turned out.

    Becoming a Purrson: As children, we struggled to understand where we fit on the power spectrum. I tried killing a snake and experimented with bullying other children the way I was bullied. I didn’t care for it. The only relief was in thinking about, researching and understanding what was going on. My earliest researches, as for many children, were in astronomy and dinosaurs. The cold magnificence of the planets and the complete wipeout of the dinosaurs gave me a way to stand back from the immediate suffering of the schoolyard. I then moved on to the early Egyptians who tried to solve their problems through magic and art. The art was visually appealing and the magic was emotionally soothing.

    Pick Your Battles: I saw that most schoolyard fights were a reaction to the immediate suffering of pain or confusion, and that they magnified, rather than solved, those problems. There was a manifest holiness about this discovery. It rescued me from the torture of everyday life and elevated me to a plane where every other contributing thinker had already become immortalized.

    Study & Strategy: I read everything I could get my hands on in history and biography (research) and in fairy tales (magic). When I fell in love with the novels of C.S. Lewis and Rumer Godden, the world judged my taste good – when I discovered Agatha Christie, it did not – but it turned out everyone else was reading her too. Agatha is a short course on human nature (original sin) and a proponent of both the scientific and Socratic methods. She’s great training for a Purrson. I wrote it all down in my Training Journal.

    Claiming Your Power: By the time you’re a teenager you can see you have some power – some mental, some physical. The question is developing it and finding appropriate gurus. Avoid the dominance/submission game.

    Keep Going – Recognize that you have been touched by the power and honor her by being grateful for the glorious gifts of life.

    Models & Mentors: “I did not deceive you. I permitted you to deceive yourself.” Agatha Christie

    “An Indian proverb says everyone is a house with four rooms – physical, mental, spiritual and emotional. Most of us live in one room or the other but if you don’t visit each room each day you are not a complete person.” – Rumer Godden

    “You are never too old to dream a new dream or set a new goal”

    – C. S. Lewis

    “You have to believe in yourself” – Sun Tzu

  • Purrsiflage – Today’s Horoscope for Your Inner Cat with Alysse Aallyn

    Dec 8 –

    Art is the potent force in your life today, whether you are aware of it or not. Your challenge is the become aware.  You possess the purrson power of making Something out of Nothing. Think. Feel. Look at the tactile world around you and reach out your hands.

    Purrsons and Artists immortalize themselves. Sometimes their works are so intriguingly beautiful that we are drawn in and our critical senses – our fear – is tranquillized while we allow the artist to work magic upon us. Artists change us. Artists aspire to be magicians of the mind and soul.

    Purrson Challenge  –    You create something unforgettable because you do not want to be forgotten. You want to open hearts, minds and brains just as yours were first opened, long ago, when you looked upon this amazing world for the first time and felt the power & potential of what you saw. Purrsons feel the same thing. We march to a different drummer we feel inside ourselves. We are inner, not outer directed.

    Purrson Danger – There is possibility here for such overweening pride that you place your own psyche above Creation in importance.   If you seek to divert worship of creation to yourself your own soul will harden unto death, and your purrson powers will be extinguished.

    Purrson Opportunity – Join the goddess in creating something entirely new that the world will not want to live without. The joy of sharing, the rapture of being known, the ecstasy of expression, of gratitude of being understood, will be yours.

    Are you an artist because you say you are or because they say you are? Well, are you a purrson because you say you are or because they say you are? I think it should be obvious that is TOTALLY NOT UP TO THEM. You MUST decide you are a purrson, you have to FEEL like a purrson and they can NEVER “tell” you what you are. It’s exactly that way for artists, too. It’s a temperament, a way of viewing the world, and because it’s in harmony with Creation all around us, it’s enormously satisfying. Really gets those alpha waves going.

    The Purrson in You needs to Protect your Creativity. It is always under threat.

    Hustle Culture – Art can’t hustle but the merchandisers and the monetizers hasten to tell you: “Close enough – let’s get this thing to market.” But you need to find out what’s there – why this subject, these tools are drawing you. You need to think, to explore, to experiment, to start the process of 10,000 “failures” Edison said are the steps to success.

    The Purrson Creates – If you’re not being Purrson for yourself, if you’re hijacked into being someone else’s purrson that’s a living death. Strategize. Speculate. Get out that Training Journal. Dream. Speak to your soul. Allow it to shine.

    Models & Mentors – “Creativity is seeing what everyone else has seen and thinking what no one else has thought.” – Albert Einstein

    “Creativity can’t get used up. The more you use the more you have.” – Maya Angelou

    “Creativity is just connecting things.” – Steve Jobs

    “There is no innovation, no creativity, without failure.” – Brené Brown

    “What’s so fascinating about life is the constant creativity of the soul.” – Deepak Chopra

  • Dec 7 Horoscope: Welcome to Purrsiflage with Alysse Aallyn

    Are you a Purrson?

    You are if Cats recognize the Inner Cat in you. Either you love cats, or cats love you. They respect you. Cats are here to teach us to respect ourselves. Let’s set some ground rules. 

    Planning & Mapping: Purrsons lead a designed life. A diary (also called a Training Journal) offers the ideal format in which to plan. Attempt to quantify the difficulties that you feel and assess possible reactions. Just because a situation is tough does not mean it shouldn’t be explored – on the contrary:

    – Repel takeover  – You are your own purrson – not somebody else’s hired gun.

    • Feel what you have to defend – your soul will reveal it to you – through relationships, through instinct, through time and through dreams.
    • Know when to let down your guard – there are times to connect, to share, to Love.
    • Learn from mistakes to hone your art. There is no Failure: only Learning. All education is precious.
    • Respect criticism; it is resistance training – it sharpens our game. We are each other’s cuttle bones, as well as cuddle bones.
    • Don’t Fear Difficulty – Take the attitude that the more time it takes the more fun it is. Your life is a long story, full of exciting challenges. Purrsons love gathering around the campfire to share adventures.

     Welcome to the Purrsiflage Horoscope. Let’s read your future through daily planetary evolution! 

    Today, Dec 7, your ego has work to do.  Did you dream last nigh? Yes you did, though you might not remember it. Your Inner Cat was talking to you.

    Jung tells us that in your dream, you are everyone. The Ego archetype starts our day. This is a warrior archetype. Why did it choose you? Life is a battle.  You are a warrior for something, as well as an advocate for yourself.

    You Are A Seeker  – You are self-defining and self-validating. You are on a quest. You wish to explore your possible incarnations.

    The First Resistance – Often it is our own self who resists most deeply; even savagely. Ultimately we must realize we have hijackers inside our brains wrestling for control. You can recognize these by their negative content. These negative voices clearly wish to subdue us into clones which is NOT HEALTHY.

    Becoming a Purrson – It is this resistance that first marks our Purrson status. Congratulate yourself. You are on the road.

    Danger– The worst hazard of self-reflection is not navel-gazing (micro study can be very revealing) but solipsism. Aloneness may in fact be Hell. We can never lose touch with those around us because it is others we are inspiring us. Avoid anyone who fail to treat you with respect.  In our increasingly autocratic world we are very familiar with Aging Babies who want the rest of us to nursemaid their fussy, immature modality because Growing Up is Ouchy. For God’s sake, for your own sake, for the benefit of the Universe and in hope of Eternity, don’t cater to or worse yet, BECOME one of THOSE.

    Challenge – Let’s set a Spirituality Schedule to reflect your needs and interests. Appoint time to be absolutely alone, for meditation and reflection. If you cannot find a room to yourself, a closet will do. You can sit in the meditation position or assume any position that allows you to be comfortable enough to become physically forgetful.  Concentrate first on building a life that allows both inner and outer growth. Surround yourself with people who respect this decision.

    Opportunity – This is a journey. Accept it. Begin your journal fearlessly with “I” and write down all your meditation thoughts and desires. This can be a poem, a fantasy, a checklist – whatever pattern occurs to you as supportive of your desires. Make a list of goals. Push shame away. This is about YOU. Naturally as you evolve, your goals will evolve, and your journal will reflect that. When you have completed your Time Alone – ten minutes to an hour – whatever works for you – pat yourself on the back. What an achievement! You are started on a path of making changing Nightmares into Dreams and making dreams come true.

    Training Journal – Carefully assess your desires versus the demands on you. List expected results if you gave in to either. Your Inner Cat wants you to develop a concept of health. Is ”freedom” staying up all night, consuming whatever substance makes you “feel better”? Clearly not. Assess the negative voice; “You’re weak”, for example. Being “in flight” from the negative voice is actually giving it mastery, you must stand up to it. Learn to answer back – “I’m in training. I did better today than yesterday.” Keep track of your achievements. Even really small ones: “I meditated for 10 minutes” are significant.

    Accept mystery: Life isn’t “win or lose.” It can’t be quantified because we are magical souls with magic coursing through us. Sometimes it’s impossible to figure out and must simply be absorbed, not rationalized. Learn to enjoy art and accept the relief it offers. Reflect back as much magic & mystery as you can muster. Your tastes will develop according to your growth – that’s a good thing. Treat yourself like a loving sensei who wants the best for you.

    Models & Mentors: Always survey possible models. Who do you admire?

    Is it

    Bruce Lee? “The difference between a purrson and an average man is laser focus.”

    Is it Carl Jung? “I am not what happened to me I am what I choose to become.” Read.  Study. Educate yourself. Develop your own models.

    “Avoid having your ego so close to your position that when your position falls, your ego falls with it” – Colin Powell

    “Don’t let your ego get in the way of your success”- Tony Horton

    “The ego seeks to divide and separate. The spirit seeks to unify and heal.” – Pema Chodron

    Think about what your mentors mean to you.  Welcome the day.

  • The Book of You – Haiku Diary by Alysse Aallyn

    #Haiku: Power Incarnate

    Your

    Brave,

    Burnished; brutalized

    Carapace.

    Manifest.

    Gaze.  Accept.

    Love.

  • The Book of You – Haiku Diary by Alysse Aallyn

    #Haiku: Wherever You Go, There You Are

    Forgive

    You –

    Befriend

    Yourself;

    Mother –

    Lover –

    Hero –

    Coach –

    Be

    Worth it

  • The Book of You – Haiku Diary by Alysse Aallyn

    #Haiku: The Gazing Ball – Prophecy

    Inward

    Resonates outward;

    Warriors

    Blossom

    Inevitably

  • The Book of You – Haiku Diary by Alysse Aallyn

    #Haiku: Every Book is a Zen Book

    Puzzle

    Words –

    Assume

    Solution –

    Labyrinths

    Demand

    Escape;

    Look

    Up