Joy of Writing – Alysse Aallyn

Inspired Pleasure

Diary of a Dancer – Last Post Party Castle – Mon 9 July 79 – 7:50 PM 26 hours without T. Spoke to him last night andagain this afternoon. His acceptance of me is total, but it comes froma position of strength and I have fears of being annihilated. Last nightI experienced hallucinatory states –…
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Inspired Pleasure

Diary of a Dancer Tues 28 Mar 78 Extraordinary spiritual experience. A haunting. Someonestanding behind me in the empty house. I turned and no one was there butpower only increased. At first I was afraid – then felt a melting richness of love– coming at me, into me from outside of me. I realized it…
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Inspired Pleasure

Diary of a Dancer a new book. Hauled out Bride & Wolves for a rewrite – tremendouslyimpressed with my own talent! Development always was my problem (as in life).Greene’s Human has an odd, unfinished feel. Reviews did not prepare me for itin the least. I think they reviewed Greene rather than his book. More impressedby…
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Inspired Pleasure

Diary of a. Dancer and figure out who I am. Read the first draft of The Speechless and theaccompanying comments of my college writing teacher. She bollixed itup. Her deconstructive destruction seems purposeful – I don’t believe shedidn’t know how good it was. Can I save it? I know I should work on onething at…
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Inspired Pleasure

Diary of a Dancer Slash Poet Slash Novelist failure. Seems my life separates into two phases: pre and post ex-husband Bruce.Pre-Bruce I was such an innocent – I think “goober” is the descriptiveexpression. Schools should not let these pathetic characters out – butwe were so eager to roam free. There is no savagery to which…
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Inspired Pleasure

Diary of a Dancer/Poet with newly creamed hands and cup of coffee in recliner. Muse time.Emerge blinking like a ground hog into a new and spring-like world. A yearago, I was a rat in a cage. It’s critical never to let the “merchants of neurosis”trick me into limiting myself. in my bed since guest room…
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Inspired Pleasure

Diary of a Dancer Who Happens to be a Poet heard Harvey’s voice in the kitchen. Thank God I heard it in time – ifhe had seen me in my baby doll nighty I guess he would have consideredhimself justified in pinning me immediately to the floor. He brought me ahibiscus flower as a peace…
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Inspired Pleasure

Diary of a Poet Who Happens to be a Dancer not New Hampshire Ave but Riggs Road. Blind turns and nonsequentiallights give me that old country feeling. We had just seen The ParradineCase. Interesting. Good jumping off place for other ideas. I like the form.Could I manage novelistically the “outsides revealing insides” that film soconfidently…
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Inspired Pleasure

Diary of a Dancer PREPPY Corseted with verbsFrench teacher sweepsCherry blossoms from the tennis courtAs she would like to frenchThe cherries, squelch them soundlyBeneath her soccer-spiking shoes While the headmistressCello-breastedPolishes graffiti carved upon her coffinIn Chaucerian High English,And the girls –Nun-white, nun-blue Soar above the hockey fields likeFoul-mouthed angels, anticipated ecstasy lockedIn narrow hope chests…
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Inspired Pleasure

Diary of a Dancer Tues. 26 July 77 9:40 AMSitting on stonewall in full sunlight in my black bikiniwaiting for pool to open. Swim and sunbathe till ll:30 when mail comes.After 7 I can return – that way I miss the crowds.Exercise, coffee, 3 glasses water. The Regime.I’m down to $4. Embarrassing to be…
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