Alysse Aallyn

Category: Confessions

  • Inspired Pleasure

    Diary of a Dancer 12:50 AM Plush Palace – exhausted and bathed in sweat.Man tried to crawl onstage with me. He was in the mood to dance!Every dancer (except me and I guess him) is using Darla’s overdosedeath (suicide or accident? I say why not murder?) as an excuse tonot dance. I like dancing. Passes…

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    Diary of a Dancer 10PM Mon 16 May 77Finally got a reaction from agent to Secaire. I was physically sick when I opened it but she was full of praise. I could teach Poe, Verlaine and Mallarme a thing or two! She’s sending itto Harcourt but telling them it’s “too fine for a paperback”. Says…

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    Diary of a Dancer Them for a long run. Check Rolfe books out of library to incorporateinto Father Vespula’s act. Supposed to see Black Sunday w/Keithtonight. I like Robt Shaw and there’s nothing else around.Had a chance to sell Bruce’s stereo for $100 so jumpedat it. (ran into Shoulders with Garrett & Opal.) Keith invited…

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    Diary of a Dancer Kerry’s asked to meet me. (He told Kerry he doesn’t deserveme. It’s the truth!) I said he can’t come to our party atThe Plum – we have no room.Sex too rough. Experimenting or letting his angerout? Maybe I’ve stopped lubricating – my body’s readyto quit even if I’m not. Wants me…

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    Diary of a Dancer Didn’t work. Never felt so far from him, and he realized it.Opal & Garrett over for dinner last night – their relationship isboring when I’m alone and don’t have R doing all the work for me.Drank too much out of sheer boredom and because I wasdepressed over R, then I get…

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  • Inspired Pleasure

    Diary of a Dancer Reminiscent of ex-husband. Some version of gaslighting? It’s a definitepower grab. He said he was “embarrassed” by my emotional intensity!I have a feeling he’s trying to cobble together a story he can tell otherpeople. As for me, I’m trying to figure out what really happened. Usedto think R’s lack of experience…

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  • Inspired Pleasure

    Diary of a Dancer Shalimar – 3:30 PM –13 Aug 76Was sitting on a box of Lite Beer sipping coffee reading Miss Read when Carmen warned me that the boss might  fire me for reading. Apparently writing he doesn’t mind so much, probably because he can’t imagine anyone keeping it up longer than 10 mins…

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  • Inspired Pleasure

    Diary of a Dancer I think he’s in love. I could fall if I let myself but something holds me back.I like our relationship now – he drops by the house after workand we’re both in jeans. I think tonight’s the night for sex –first time – I’m nervous but since I love his body…

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  • Cloverleaf

    Some roads lead nowhere; They’re my favorites. I held my breath while You drew my face in Blinding strokes and Creamed my mouth with curling lines Destroyed one picture; then another. Left at dawn while I Ran downstairs in circles, calling Raging, spending Nights without you, No blue thigh guards My sleeping heart while yours…

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  • Epithalanium

    Epithalamium The heat that rises From our marriage bed Powers up this house Summoning a cradle, Undercroft & Buttery; Colored jars of Seasoned fruit, Museums of ripeness Captured at the peak – just As we are – Citified – Reveling in Ownership; Mortgaging The future.

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